life sucks.

in a weird way life sucks.
you know when they say you have to live up to what you can do or whatever that saying is. im feeling as if i could if i was able too. i am definitely living a lie. and lets face it, i am a really good lier. and to my friends i can be a real bitch. but im a nice person. i cant spell and i know im writing these sentences wrong but its late and i just need to say this. i am a spoiled, bitchy, generous, lying, sneaky, greedy, warm hearted, unemotional trainwreck. and i do not know what to do.

im not sure baout anything. and thats the truth.